Things in life are not easy...I would be leading what seemed to be a great life...two great kids...my financial house in order to the point where retirement at the age of 59 seems within reason...a person in my life that cares about me...and I about her...but I still have demons...addictions if you will...
1) Like many...I struggle with my weight...I have never had it easy here....and many things contributed...as a child I ate to chase away the anxiety of a troubled home life....my parents had some epic battles and I sought the solace of my grandmother to get away from it all...she was a kind and caring woman....but she fed me to fight the tears...in one year I gained almost 50 pounds...it was the start of a lifelong battle with food...at 59 I still struggle.
2) Alcohol addiction...during my late teen years I found alcohol...like food it was something that soothed the soul...I always LOVED how it felt...did then...still do...in my mid-50s I found I was drinking alone and almost every night...my partner at the time called me on it and caught me sneaking drinks here and there...it was at that time I knew I had a problem...for the last 5 years I have been in and out of sobriety....the story of my struggles will be told here...what I do know is I can not do it alone...
In spite of these things I have a great life...a good job, people who care about me...it is for them as much as myself that I must bring this under control...if I do not one of both of my demons can kill me...not the life I had envisioned in my later years...on these pages you will read about my struggles...I hope if there is someone else out there with similar issues, I can help them with my experiences...my problems are not unique...and I would like to hear about you too...the internet can bring people with like issues together...maybe this can help all of us...
